Pretty Blah today. I'm feeling kind of lonely me thinks. But honestly, I believe that loneliness is always a cover for something deeper.
To be honest, I feel really empty because I'm going to be graduating soon. Its this on going numbness and I'm not quite sure who to call to explain it to or how to deal with it.
The past five years of my life..have been unviersity. Its soo bittersweet for it to be over and for it to be done. But its all I know so its a bit scary. I wish that everything could come with me when I left. I'm going to miss this feeling of things being familiar. But I spoke to my family today, and I miss them. I really do. Its hard to be away from the most important in people in your life for most of the year. I mean..I do get used to it but there are those days when I just miss the little things.

having my mom cook meals for me and walking into the most beautiful house on earth full of neverending love and goodness. I miss that too. Always there..financially emotionally..always there for me. I miss that too.

I think that this is all a part of life..to move on. Moving on is something that I've never been very good at. I guess when you grow up as an international kid, people are always going away in your life. You dont ever know if you'll see most of them again. That time is coming...I dont know when I'll be back to Ottawa again in all reality.

I wish I could put everything in a bottle. All the people, faces places. Its just been so amazing. Im not quite sure how else to put it..amazing! Well...I told you..loneliness always stems from something else. Always. But...I'll be okay...

I hope that in Cameroon I'll be writing an email like this before I go..cause it means that I've found another home to add to my collection.