Saturday, October 08, 2005

hey its me...
well..to be honest there's a lot of good things happening
but im still trying to be free free of conflict
i've discovered that i dont like it when things turn out to be different from what i expected
more than anythign i just run away...

its a hard thing to face but its good that i know
and im starting to see conflict as a blessing because you really learn so much from it
I really enjoy geting to know myself better

but at the same time is scares me to death cause its something new..what if i dont like me?
what if things dont work out? its insane...how much this process scares me
but i've decided that im going to start booking meetings with janice weekly because i really need as much help as i can to overcome conflict
as i think its holding me back from becoming the truest form of me
im really glad that im fighting to be who i want to be
its amazing....

its liberating but amazing to know that i can find joy in these times...of uncertaintity..
i cant find a way to be the person i want to be....

but to be honest....i need to work harder..i need to focus and remind myself of why im diong what im doing for my inspiration and discipline
i havent been doing that very much...
which i know will inspire me to new hieights

its great to see the beauty in eerything..im learning more than i ever have about myself and my life

but at the same tiem i know i have a long way to go....

2 Comments:

Blogger bao said...

salut belle femme,
Je viens juste de découvrir ton blog en faisant des recherches par hasard sur AIESEC Baroda. J'ai eu le temps de lire quelques un des tes articles et c'est fantastique. Tu t'exprimes si bien et tu restes si naturelle. C'est beau ce que tu dit. Tu es si optimiste sur la vie du genre " la vie est si belle" " une autre avanture commence pour moi" " c'est beau de voir la beauté de tout" ou encore " vis tes rêves". Ouwwaaa, je suis émerveillée par tout ça. Tu me donnes plus de volonté et d'optimisme pour moi-même. Merci, Juanita. Je suis heureuse de t'avoir rencontré car j'ai appris beaucoup de choses de toi et j'ai aussi découverte une belle et superbe femme en toi : )

10:41 AM  
Blogger David BBB said...

Hey Juanita!

It's David from You Can here! I hope this is the right Juanita =p

Yeah I know what you are talking about, especially when it comes to reminding yourself about focusing on what you need to be doing. I think you were the one that asked Brodie at conference "How do you keep yourself motivated when doing all the day to day phone calling etc"

I can't remember exactly what he said but I think it was something along the lines of you just keep doing it because it becomes something that you love. He doesn't think of the grind anymore as a grind, he just sees himself doing what he's passionate about.

Cya! I'm in the middle of exams now and they're killing me!

BBB

6:20 PM  

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